Ever since mental illness first affected my life, the memory problems soon set in. I cannot remember anything from my childhood, and have frequent gaps in my memory of multiple things that I cannot recall. They can be simple things, such as menial tasks, but also significant events.
One story I was told, was that when I went to pick my wages up from a friend’s house, he wasn’t there so I sat with the two other people who live there, and became extremely catatonic for at least an hour. Then took my wages and left. However, I cannot recall that day at all; it may as well just be a fictional story as far as I’m concerned.
Over the years I’ve had many of these experiences. It feels as if my memory worsens increasingly day by day. It’s surprising how much memory loss can affect your day to day life. Both my short term and long term memory has been affected. It can certainly be upsetting or distressing, as it can affect many aspects of your life. It is particularly hard to learn and retain any new knowledge, as well as recall knowledge which was previously learned. Writing becomes difficult; spelling, punctuation, grammar, it can all be affected.
Cognitive impairment is something that has affected me greatly, and I absolutely hate it. I find it one of the hardest parts of dealing with this illness, as I can see how much it has taken away from me.